Wondering If I Made A Mistake

ok so ive been thinking alot lately and ive realized that ive made alot of major life decisions recently.

1)i moved back home from hawaii
2)i decided to go to culinary school
3)im living with family

like ok the only one of those 3 that im completely at peace with and happy about is #2 im actually really excited to be in C. school but at the same time im wondering if maybe i should have gone to it somewhere else becuz being home is not at all what i imagined when i was in hawaii envisioning it

aside from school i feel like i actually have nothing here for me u know
my family are just doing nothing but getting on my nerves they all feel like they know whats best for me more than i do and its like they dont realize that im and adult and if i am making mistakes they are my mistakes to make on top of the fact that im forced into the middle of all of there FUCKING DRAMA

then my friends (now before yall try and get mad yall arent doing anything wrong) are here and that is really good cuz i depend on yall to be there. but at the same time we all live such seperate lives that i never see them

so between my family that i dont feel like dealing with and the friends i feel like im growing apart from i feel most of the time that im left alone here

that on top of all the things i brought up in my last blog im just starting to think that coming back to baltimore has been nothing but a mistake so now im just hoping that it all turns around so how and that i can get over this or that i can figure out another change i can make that can fix it all wether that means leaving baltimore is the only option or if there is another choice is yet to be seen

Jay Out