same song and dance

I'm kinda feeling like how troy felt on his blog on July 4. I'm tired of routine things I'm tired of arguing about the same shit I am just tired. It seems that our one argument that won't seem to go away is the one about marriage and I'm tired of talking about it because I feel so passionately about it that I can become to think irrationally. so lets begin....

Me and troy went to this presentation, they were selling cookware. So i forgot to tell troy that it was for couples a that was engaged or married. so once we get there and they ask us when we r getting married he looks at me kinda confused. and I say we don't have an set date.

So we sit down and troy send me a message and says why didn't u tell me this was some marriage stuff and I tell him that I forgot to tell him n that its also for committed couples and he's like we are in a committed relationship and I'm like I KNO!!

FAST FORWARD TO THE NEXT DAY AT WORK
*we're on our lunch break*

ever since He sent me that message telling me that we are n a committed relationship that he's trying to imply that I am trying to trap him he's says I'm not but he's always (to me ne way) trying to make sure ppl kno we aren't married and blah blah and I told him that it hurts my feelings that he does that.

This leads into the argument... why do you wanna get married so bad!!

Same question same answer... So for anyone who don't know, I will explain right now and this will be the last time I ever explain why ever again.

I want to get married because it is a more to me then just a piece of paper it is more then a ring it is a spiritual bond in front of God. Marriage is my only goal in life. And that's the truth I don't wanna be a doctor or lawyer that would b nice if I was one but its not my goal my goal in life is to get married and it would mean the world to me.

It's not just a title its not a piece of paper its a commitment u make to God to love and cherish a person for your entire human life and beyond. ( I am a very spiritual person and I am afraid of going to hell)

So I can become very emotional when talking about this subject I can get angry and i can say somethings that I may later regret. Which I did, I told troy that since there's no ring on my finger he can't tell me ne thing and he's just another guy that I do. (I totally regret that now)

I apologized to him and told him that I was just angry but idk

i just wish he felt the same way about marriage as i do

~Mia out~