GRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am in such a GRRRRRRRR mood. Last night the parenting group class me and Troy was in gave us and 2 other couples a free night at a hotel. Troy from the beginning didn't wanna go with the other couples he's like they are gonna wanna hangout and all I wanna do is chill with you. I understand that but if we have sex as soon as u get there around 5 y cant we chill with them for a hour or 2 and still have plenty of time for us? It bothers me cuz it seems like Troy never wants to hangout with ppl that I wanna hangout with its like If I am friends with somebody it seems like he just don't like them. I thought the couple thing was nice cuz the guys would play the game and us girls would just chill but idk I know where Troy was coming from but did he really have to be so distant the whole time. But then again I don't care cuz I went ne way and had a few laughs I'm happy I went.

So next reason why I am in a GRRRRRRRR mood is cuz I went all out on a low budget for Troy I went and got a new outfit, some candles,some liquor.... food, food for later that night, fruit, STOCKINGS sodas, some cute little drinking glasses, a lot and I didn't it on little money even spent my bill money on it. So after I come back from the other couples room i lay down with Troy and idk how we got on this but I asked him what did he want and he's like I appreciate what u did but this isn't what I wanted. Like I felt like that was a HUGE slap in the face!!! And I'm like wow I cant believe he said that but then again he's a Tool at times so its whatever I just know that I am not gonna go out on the limb for him ne more, I also do the romantic shit and the surprises and stuff!!! All I asked for him to do was write me a letter and he couldn't even do that talking about he don't like to write and that it was too short notice ugh a bunch of BS so I'm not even worried about it ne more I'm just gonna take it day by day cuz I get tired of being the romantic one, like he makes me feel like me being a hopeless romantic is some kinda crime or a disease or something. And if i want something done to me I have to tell him and its no fun having to tell ur guy what u want they should just know....

UGH GUYS JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO once againGRRRRRRRRRR I thougth last nigth would have been fun it was but I went to sleep angry and upset only to be woken up 3 in the morning cuz he wanted to have sex (I did have sex but thats beside the point) I was still upset, I'M STILL UPSET but I just ignore it cuz it seems to only be me who feels this way.

(sigh)
Mia out