UGH!!! i feel like crap

ok so im back in baltimore going to school and i love that im finally doing what i love but at the same time it sucks. last year living in Hawaii and taking care of myself made me feel awesome. i was grown up and mature and i didnt have to burden anyone but now that im back home i feel like i regressed. because im here and jobless and my school i actually have to make monthly tuition payments and so my mother has to pick up the slack. so she has to pay my tuition, and my brothers tuition on top of the other things she has to do. i dont know it just kinda makes me feel like a failure to have to make her go through that. so now my plan is to talk to the lady at my school that gets students jobs becuz even if i cant work enough hours to pay my tuition and have money to spend as long as i can pay some of my own tuition as long as i can take some of the burden off of my mother i will feel better about myself. so for now im just gonna have to deal til i can get a job

Jay Out