I WANT TO FUCKING COME HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay so alot people think im crazy when i say stuff like that but im completely tired of being here. like i cant take it anymore! im tired of the people, the sun, the beach. im just tired of everything. Im tired of all the people here that think they know me and can tell me shit about myself and can try and help me solve my problems. Im tired of people who dont know shit about me beyond what i let them know telling me im lazy because i decide to skip a class that i have a fucking B+ to a fucking A in. Im tired of people not being able to except that im not always gonna be fucking hapy smiling Justin all the time, just like everyone else gets pissed off so can I. Like just leave me alone sometimes. Im tired of people trying to make me more like them, but seriously if i wanted to be a fucking cold emotionless person with no heart i would be one now i dont need you to try and make me a fucking jack-ass because thats not who i am. Im tired of having random ass mood swings. and ive come to the conclusion that it has to be Hawaii thats making me have them because when im back home i only get pissed for reasons here i will smile and then the next minute be ready to punch someone for saying thank you to me. Im just tired of being here.

and i think the main reason that i am is because of how much i miss from back home. Like i miss my fam so much. I miss my friends, my real friends the ones that know me with out me having to explain. the ones that can actually make me feel better bout stuff with out making me pissed off. The ones that i can talk to anything about. I miss the people in Baltimore because in the end of the day even the people in Baltimore that i hated, are at least real people i know what im getting with them, its not like that in here. everyone is fake everyone has an agenda. even the people that i thought where really cool here im slowly starting to see how hypocritical they are and its really starting to bother me. I just need to get out of here.

and so the countdown starts again i will leave this Fucking island in 47 days and counting

now dont get me wrong its not horrible here there are somethings and some people that im gonna miss but not enough for me to stay on this fucking rock any longer than i have to

47 days to go
Jay out