Don't feed me the bullshit

So I had a bad start off to today. I'm over the whole situation now but I realized that I needed to blog about it so here I go.

So today actually kinda started out ok nuffin major until I got to work.I get to work and I happen to look at the schedule and see that ot says big ass day next to my name "OFF" since I've been working there when I'm in skool I have the same days from week to week. So I was upset nuffin to cry over until I started to voice my opinion. My manager that does the schedule was off so I really dont have a choice but to wait to she gets there and ask her but the fact remains y am I missing this day normally me and Troy work the same days, so how come he gets to keep his friday but mines is gone? So I'm just thinking and speaking out loud and as I am, Troy is just strugging his shoulders so I look at him and I'm like you dont even care. So he's like what you want me to yell and fuss cuz ur day is missing? THAT WAS NOT THE POINT!!!!!!! let me say it again THAT WAS NOT, NOT THE POINT! I dont want you to fuss cuz my day was missing I wanted to just show some compassion and just say something comforting or helpful but instead you just walk around unaffected. If the shoe was on the other foot you'd b pissed and I'd try to say something to help or comfort you ne thing but walk around as if its not my problem cuz its not me. And this thing about that is everytime I have an issue he never says ne thing comforting, he acts as if he's some sort of computer that cant compute emotions. Like idk what to say cuz this is keeps happening and everytime it does happen he always ask me what is he to say what is he to do and I feel like i shouldnt have to tell him how to console me! and I hate it cuz I hate crying its too much to do and too much emotion crying itself is too much. So My manager finally cames and asks me why am I there. I tell her I didnt kno I wasnt on the thing, so she looks at it and looks at me and tells me that I should've seen the schedule yesterday when I got my check. I never bother to look at the damn thing cuz when im n skool my schedule always stayed the same until now. Then she told me that nobody schedule is set in stone and that there running like a business and they blah blah blah other bullshit like that was the most bullshit I could honestly say I have ever heard!!! If my schedule has been the same for the past 3 year while i'm in skool what the fuck is different now!!! Ne other time me n troy always work the same days always now (just so happen im pregnant) my days drop? I do not understand what the hell she is talking about. So i cried cuz I was frustrated, I cried cuz I didnt express how I felt I cried because I couldnt say or express how I felt!!! I HATE CRYING!!!!!!!!! Like that is bullshit like no other! So after I cried and cried about my frustrations, I realized that I need to to stress over it!!! its done its over so just drop it no hard feelings I kno God has something better n store for me.

So the next bullshit somebody fed to me was the skool. So I went last week to the financial aid last week I asked the lady what happened to my money, she fed me this bullshit about how I still had the money I had to just wait a little... BULLSHIT as if I never seen it before. So April 1, I go and check my account summery and I see two big ass loans sitting there waiting for my approval. lol April fools on me, So the next day I go there and I ask the lady well what happened to my free money? she's like O i didnt qualify I didnt send the required forms in? WTF??? first off I dont kno where that scholarship came from, I dont kno what fucking papers they're talking about so I talked to her about the loans and she told me to just take what ever I needed and then she told me to take that stupid loan test and get 12 out of 15 (i got 14 out of 15 only cuz i misread the other one :)

So I took the test and now I have to wait for for the govt to send the skool my results (up to 5 businesses days) wait for them to to they stuff (ne where from 7-15 business days) but if they want they money soon they better do it n like 7 then after they take their money they will refund me the rest (which will take 7-14 business days) so all together I'm looking at a month before i see ne $$$$ but I have to b patient it might not b that long if they want they 888 dollars, so I'll just stay posted and keep on top of them cuz I want my money n they want theirs. so we're pretty much on the same page!!

So before I go I'm gonna go on a happy note, soon I will b posting that big/little blog saying if its a a boy or b a girl soon and I cant wait, another thing is that Troy finally felt the baby kick yesterday!! it was so amazing that he can finally feel and believe that its a baby there :)

I refuse to say Mia out so bye