Its time to Grow Up

So my title isn't about other people, it's about me. I was SOOOO proud of myself last night. Like normally, on nights like last night, I would've drunken everything in sight. I would've gotten high. I would've had sex with someone I just met. BUT I DIDN'T. I stopped when I wanted to and I sobered up by the end of the night and I think it's because I'm finally growing up!

For starters, I gave up my cup of vodka. VODKA! I usually down that shit but I didn't want to drink anymore so I stopped. Usually I drink to get drunk but I didn't. I drank what I wanted and stopped after that. Secondly, I refused to have sex with a guy I just met. Something I probably would've done if I was shitfaced. And it was because 1) he lied to me and told me he just wanted to chill. 2) HE WAS BEING HELLA CLINGY. He was acting like my damn boyfriend, trying to be all over protective. Like fuck you I just met you. I ain't your property! and 3) You know what he said to me when I said I wasn't going to have sex with him. He said:

"Well it's just hard, you know, being around Dezeray and Lisandra and not being able to hve sex with them"

So you're saying since they have a new friend you met you think I'M going to have sex with you. Urnnnnnn....WRONG! I'm not having sex with people I'm not in a relationship with anymore, fuck that shit!

Thirdly, I took care of one of my drunk friends (because I've been in that position before) and I felt obligated to do what I had to do. It felt good being the sober, mature one and not the shitfaced rowdy one like I usually am. I think I ca make a habit of this. Don't drink at all or drink before I get there and just get a little tipsy and let it wear off. I like myself better that way.

I've noticed this more mature Jasmine coming to light and I think I like what I see. Like I used to lead guys on even when I didn't like them. I mean, I did kiss him but I stopped because I knew I didn't like him and it was wrong so I told him upfront. Like I can't deal with guys like him. I need a guy that's gonna drink and be chill...not drink and be clingy and hella horny because a clingy guy is the BIGGEST turn off for me. So, buddy you lost your chance.

And Imma need mia to send me those pics HAHA

But until next time I have a break through..

Tata

Jizzface.