UGH!!!!!

I am so stressed right now! Like I don't want to be pregnant!! This is the main reason why I waited so long to lose my virginity! I just knew some dumb ass shit like this would happen! And then like the guy is being an ass trying to put it all on me and that its my fault that I'm in this situation when it isn't! We both made a dumbass mistake and now I have to suffer for it while he claims he has everything to lose! Real talk, I don't give a fuck about his family or his girl or his fucking future!! I care about my shit!! How am I going to raise a child?! I've never had any serious responsibility in my life! I have the highest goals in the world! On top of that, I have Greg. I feel horrible that I betrayed him and had sex with someone else! And then if I'm pregnant, I know he will be devastated. I just wish this whole situation would disappear! And then he's trying to tell me I'm ugly (which we all know I'm not)! This little dick nigga isn't even cute, he just has pretty eyes! Like the sex was HORRIBLE and I'm not the first person to say it! Honestly, I don't even want to talk to him at all! If I am pregnant, I would rather move to Miami with my father, that way he will NEVER know where I am and won't ever see this child!

And its like I can not believe that he was my friend before this entire situation! Like we actually used to have conversations about stuff and geek. I guess thats what's pissing me off the most! All the people around my told me that he was an ass and I kept sticking up for him but at this point, I wish he would just get hit by a bus or shot at morgan! ugh! I have never wished harm on someone else but he truly deserves it! I just wish I could have a conversation with God and ask him why me? They say God only gives you as much as you can handle but this is crazy. I think I'm just going to go sit in my car and cry. :'(

SoSad
Sandra Out