BURR BURR BURR

So I am not trying to be cold but ... BURR! :-D

There is someone that I messed with for like ever and who I always thought would have first dibs. You know how there's always that one guy who no one thinks is good for you but they have some type of power over you and no matter what you can't leave them alone? And to be honest, in this world people get advantages for things. Just like a girl gets an advantage for being pretty, a guy gets an advantage for being in shape/having a sexy body/ being able to hit it right. You know how girls stay with guys who cheat on them with every girl on the block, messing up the girls credit, living in the girls house and not paying rent and basically not doing anything for her? We all know guys who fuck you like a pornstar get away with things the average guy cant.

And the thing is, guys know it when they get it like that. It might be a noise they hear you make in bed and once they hear it they KNOW. They are like from this moment on I NEVER have to worry about her looking at another guy again.

Anyway so the first time I moved out from my strict fascist house and finally could be the hippie girl i secretly am, one of the first things i did was went all the way with this guy i liked and it was a wrap. I was like now im hooked and always going to have these love hate feelings for him. I went out and partied and drank and stuff but I never got involved with other guys cause I was like whats the point? You would be a waste of time cause its not going to be like what I'm already getting!

SO long story short since this wasnt supposed to be a long blog is that although I was NEVER LOOKING FOR SOMEONE ELSE, I guess sometimes it justs happens that you fall into a situation where your doing something new. And this new situation progresses and progresses and you take a step and another step until next thing you know you take a look around and realized you walk right into COMPLETELY different world now. And you weren't dragged here - you got your ass up and came here on your own cause you wanted to. And you have to take a step back and reevaluate while watching everything you thought you know gets turned upside down. I guess thats why they say your too young to make decisions at my age because you havent seen enough of the world yet.

Anyway guys consider this:

When a girl says that she DEFINITELY isn't accepting applications for new male friends.... someone is eventually going to come along and make her reconsider that. And he is going to be one lucky guy.

Dez Out