That Ain't Help

So I know I just posted but I still feel bad. Like I feel angry and sad and ok all at the same time. Like I am so confused and if there weren't people here in the room with me, I would start crying. Like I hope its just that dumb ass plan b pill throwing off my hormones cause I am never like this!! Like I know I'm angry cause I just keep things bottled up instead of telling people what I really feel. Like everyone knows I have no problem speaking my mind but lately I've been biting my tongue ALOT and I honestly have no reason to. And I know I'm sad/happy cause of this pregnancy thing. Like I'm happy I am not pregnant with ryan's baby but I wouldn't mind being pregnant. I feel like I should just full into my culture and settle down and have kids. And everyone is like that wasting your potential and I feel like why can't I use my potential to raise a family?? It just bothers me that everyone is determined to tell me what to do with my uterus! If I woke up tomorrow pregnant, I would be perfectly fine with that.

Anyway, until then I can always take care of my boo Dezzy. She makes me happy like right now. I just talked to her and I feel better :D

So Confused

Sandra Out (again)