Emotional Rollercoaster

So I've been kinda up and down over the past few days dezeray says it's my new hormonal birth control but idk I just don't feel right...

So for starters I feel like a total emotional wreck!!!! I'm happy one minute sad the next angry after that n then happy again I have no idea why I feel this way but I just do like it's a lot of contributing factors for me feeling this way like bleeding for one n idk how long I've been bleeding I'm gonna say about almost about a week but it seems longer because I'll stop at night n start bleeding again in the morning it's like ugh!!!!! Idk what's going on in my body! And then on top of that I'm soooooo horny I can't even remember the last time I had sex and I want it sooo bad and I'm trying to act like it don't bother me but it does!!! It's driving me crazy it's like I'm repressing soo much pent up anger n energy idk what to do wit myself and I'm tired of lying to myself like I'm not pressed over it but I am like I'm holding back so much emotional baggage that my head and hurts from holding shit back!!! Ugh

My back and it feels like my kidneys (or sides) hurt and been hurting for the past few days too like I was trying to poop and I couldn't cuz as I tried to push my side was killing me!!!! I almost wanted to cry!!! And not to mention my constant mild stomach and back cramps!!! I just feel so all over with these emotions and pain and I just want it to stop

I wanna talk to Troy but I feel like he won't understand and in the same breathe Im angry cuz he won't understand and then I'm upset cuz he can't see that I'm not acting normal and that he won't just hold me and rub my back and make me feel nice :( im upset cuz he wants to have sex with me but doesn't feel like putting in the work I'm just all around miserable n idk what to do wit myself and I wanna cry but I'm too angry to cry cuz I feel like I don't have a reason too :'(

Mia sad.