Just On My Mind

So I randomly ended up on the blog today which I think was a sign that I totally need to blog plus I have shit on my mind and I can not concentrate on papers or anything like that until I get this off, so here goes.

First School. Yea that hell hole! When I first started college, I totally thought that I would do my 4 years here and then do my 2 years of grad and then get a job as I work towards my PhD and then have a baby! However, as I grow and mature, I realize I HATE SCHOOL!! Its not that I don't love to learn or that I'm lazy but I hate the entire process! I bust my ass for 3 months, get some grades and do that shit again in the spring! Than after 4 years of this cycle, I graduate with a slip of paper that says I busted my ass for 4 years and now I am ready to bust my ass for another 2! SCHOOL NEEDS LUBE IF IT WANTS TO BUST MY ASS SO MUCH!!! At this point, I want to have a baby when I graduate! I want to be a mommy and have my own little apartment
(*sidenote I always wanted an apartment cause it was lonely never having neighbors growing up but that's another blog*)and my man or husband and I just be a stay at home mom! Who cares if I wasted 4 years of college and being bilingual?! Why should stay at home moms be uneducated?! I'm just saying, I'm starting to think grad school ain't for me and that I need to change career goals. Can I just get a job until I find Mr. Right who can take care of me and our child and I can quit and live out my days cooking and cleaning??

Second Life. Its here. Thats all I can describe it as. Life is like a speeding train but there is no one to stop it! My friends are what they have always been. Mia is mommy. Justin is cook. Dez is avoidance (No we're still not "friends" but we communicate indirectly which is better than nothing because I missed her in my life). Troy is working man. Jas is absent actress. However, as usual with the seasons changing, so does my love life. I have a new boo from detroit. He goes to hopkins and I adore him. I actually see him being in my life for a long time because he is genuinely different than all the others. I mean with any other relationship, I started on all the wrong notes and we rushed into it and before long, 3 months in they said they loved me and I said it back without really meaning it. This time it's different. He hasn't rushed me for a relationship or even pressured me to settle down. We always have fun and laughing and we can do homework together (WHICH HAS NEVER HAPPENED CONSIDERING SCHOOL IS 85% OF MY LIFE). I can just really see myself being with him someday and it feels good to know I don't need to make that decision now. I want what Mia and Troy have and I don't mind waiting to have it! Other than that, my mom is my mom. She thinks she's sexy now and would like to be called by her first name! That lady is a trip!

I gotta get to work but maybe I'll blog later today.

TaTaForNow
Sanda Out!