Please Don't leave

I love that P!nk song!!!!

Like in the chorus she says "I always say how I don't need you/ but it's always gonna come back to this/ please, don't leave me"

I'm always saying I don't need Troy, we are always bumping heads about something, like another part of the song, "How did I become so obnoxious?/ What is it with you that makes me act like this?/ I've never been this nasty"

I feel like I wasn't this nasty before, like I love Troy and he's always there for me. Like yesterday at work we was talking about having a girl friends is expensive. That he has to put out like 30 percent of his paycheck towards me. lol I was laughing because he does... He's always paying for something for me giving me money for something, and I wanna say right now that I am VERY THANKFUL FOR WHAT YOU'VE DONE FOR ME!!! Especially last night... which leads me to this.


Ok so my mother sugar dropped last night to 54 which is very low for a diabetic. She was unconscious but alert the lady told me ( I had to call 911 cuz she managed to say help me even tho she wasn't conscious) It was soooooo scary but the strange thing was her sugar has dropped lower than that before and this crazy thing hasn't happened to her. I was so scared and my adrenaline was pumping and I had to do what I had to do, like the imagine of her gurgling and moaning because she wasn't conscious scared the shit out of me. Melanie was crying I had to have her leave the room, like I had to get into my superwoman mode! and I did and I'm happy I was there cuz idk what would've happened if I wasn't there. But Troy was there and helped by opening the door for them and they came upstairs and was totally calm even tho I was "wiggin" out as Troy would say. I'm happy cuz Melanie was being a good girl and she stayed put and watched Caleb, and I called my brother cuz I know he would want to know that something was happening. It was just a crazy night cuz I had just had a bad dream before I woke up. And I'm just so thankful to God that she's ok. And after she came thru I felt very bad that I didn't pray to God (at least I don't remember praying) and asking to make sure she's ok. But I thanked him as soon as this caught my attention and I am thanking him now as I post this blog. It was just a crazy night like I was so happy that I'd get an extra hour of sleep and I didn't lol but its ok cuz I had to be there for My mother and I am happy that I was there.

Other than that, I've been ok, still stressing but I'm trying not to. I am gonna start to loose weight and get better because I am too young to be having these problems.

Until next time

~Mia~