There Will Be...Ups and Downs

in case you have been missing my life, me and brittnie totally broke up over some bull and like I
am totally depressed so I needed to spend quality time with my best friend and twin dezeray. I totally missed her like in massive amounts and now we're spending quality time together and I'm typing on her laptop....YEAH!!! twin time all the way....so I came over and she saw me and she said I was curvy...umm CURVES!!! adn dez looks amazing...like she grew like 2 inches...WTF!!! and she randomly has boobs now! RANDOMLY!!! lmao

Anyway, in my life like I totally like school and its kinda amazing now except my wickity wack spanish teacher!! she wildin on me cause I can't declare a major and therefore I can't write a paper on it! ugh!! I really do not like her...but she's really cool and I kinda like her class. Also we are always talking Obama! Like today, we were talking about the debate and she was talking about Len the Plumber and about how she changed her facebook status to "Forget Len...call Juan"...it wasn't really funny but it kinda was. But only cause she's mexican. And like she's always off topic. Like she always talks about weird stuff that happened in her life before she came to our class and then we never get to our lesson plan...lol

What else?? so I guess you guys are wonder why we really broke up. {hope I don't start crying} Like she really wanted to have an open relationship and I agreed to it but I really didn't want to do it but I wanted to save our relationship so I said ok. But I was really unhappy with the relationship and the direction that it was taking and like in a way I'm kinda happy we did break up. Like I really wish we could restart from nothing and just get to know each other...like chill and what-not...:( if only one could rewind the hands of time. But I really miss her and I keep making dez answer my phone when she calls cause I might just break down and die...ugh

Well....thats really all for now...this is my amazing first blog