I think I'm taking the right path in life =/

Okay so, I know I haven't written in a while but I really don't feel like back-tracking on everything that I wanted to write. So for now, I'll broadcast the things that are fresh in my brain. Well for starters, there are 3 more weeks until my sister comes to visit me and that's number one on the list of things I'm looking forward to:

1. My sister coming to visit
2. Lab on Wed (this is continuous throughout the whole year)
3. Thanksgiving Break
4. Christmas Break
5. Reuniting with my friends back home
6. Judging BCFLs
7. Coming back to see City's play
8. Meeting Taye Diggs
9. GRADUATION! (Haha)

Sooo, that list was rather pointless but I just wanted to give you a sense of where my life is heading right now. But, that's not the issue that I want this blog to focus on. The issue that I want to focus on begun this weekend at Marathon (don't worry, it's nothing bad). So I went to Marathon this weekend which was probably my favorite one next to Opening Marathon because it was 1) drama only and 2) Vegas themed. So I had fun. But okay...So there's this guy in the drama department named Troy. He's a transfer so technically he's like a junior or something. But anyway, that's not important. So he was GONE! Like he had waay to much to drink. Fortunately, I didn't have much (unlike the week before. If you want to know about the week before, it was just like Jock Jam but with more puking). Anywho...So he could not stop touching me all night. Like, Josh had smacked my knee and it hurt SO motherfucking bad so I was bent over in pain so Troy comes behind me and says "I got her I got her" and grabs me by my waist and sits me on his lap.

So I'm like whatever, it's cool I don't care. He starts rubbing on me and shit but I'm like "It's Marathon. Whatever". So right before Milly and Nneka are like, "Let's go. We want Insomnia Cookies" So I'm like YAAAYY cookie! But right after, they get up and Troy grabs my hand and takes me to the little foyer where the bathroom is and I'm like "Oh shit I know what's going to happen" So I'm repeating over and over that I have to go and that they'll eave me and blaahhhh. And he's all like "I don't want you to leave, don't leave blahhhh" All along I'm thinking, this guy is trying to get me in the bathroom (don't worry, it's cool, I know him, lol). So he starts kissing me


TEL ME WHY EVERY MOTHERFUCKER I KISS IT'S LIKE KISSING FISH!!! THEY FUCKING SUCK AT YOUR FACE LIKE IT'S THEIR JOB! GEEEZ! AND HE HAD TO HAVE LIKE HALITOSIS OR SOMETHING! SO I HAD TO STOP KISSING HIM LIKE IT WASN'T AN OPTION! (THE ONLY GUY I KISSED WHO WAS DECENT WAS SOME GUY I MET AT MARATHON WHO HAD HUGE LIPS TO MATCH HIS HUGE DICK. LOL BUT THAT WAS MY SHITFACE NIGHT SO I HARDLY REMEMBER ANYTHING)

So I'm pulling away from him and he's not letting me go. Then the bathroom comes free so he's pulling me in the bathroom and I'm thinking "I can't fuck this guy cuz for one....he has bad breath, two I have to leave now otherwise I'm not going to have a way back home, and three I'm on my period! lol. It was like he wouldn't stop persisting and pulling and I'm ike this dude would rape me if he had to. But this guy saved my life. Like he came and was like "Um, can I take a piss"

So to make a long story short, I left him blue-balled on the couch and went to get Insomnia. And I had to use chapstick because I could smell his breath on my lips lol

The point of this story: So I was thinking. I have like this huge crush on a guy named Mike (Omg he looks like fucking Taye Diggs and I want his body so bad). But the bad this is 1) he never notices me and 2) he's a fucking junior so I only have this year and next year with him. And like, Nneka asked me a very important question after I told her about the Troy issue. She asks "If you weren't on your period, would you have sex with him". And I actually, legit thought about this...... No, I wouldn't have. Why? Because I'm actualy enjoying celibacy. I haven't had sex in 1 year, 1 month and 8 days. Why should I start now with some guy I don't even like. I don't think I would like being a whore because chances are, if I had sex with him, we wouldn't have had sex again. I would've had sex with someone else. And maybe someone else after that and I would've been a whore. BUT I'M NOT!

I thought, "I want to be in a relationship before I have sex again. If I ever do again before marriage." Like I want to see where it goes with Mike. I don't want to fuck this up. I've gotten my heart broken more than once (One, hella recent). And I dont want SEX to be the reason I get it broken again. So.............I think celibacy until a relationship or until marriage is kicking in as of now!