So close but yet so far away

I'm so close to getting a car, but yet I am so far away! I was about to test drive my car out when the guy couldn't find the keys. I was so heartbroken! But tomorrow is Monday and I will be one step closer. Like I wouldn't be in such a rush if I would at least drive! But I NEVER, drive! Troy won't let me. Like this morning he told me to go warm the car up. We was only going up the street, so I figured that I could maybe drive there. Did I? How about no! He came to the car and had that look like ok move. I'll admit I was kinda hurt, like he let our friend Kiea take his car, but he won't let me drive it even if he's in the car! Like I try to reason with it like, well she has experience and stuff, but he won't let me do it even if he's in the car. Like I can't wait to get my car so I can just go!!! Like I'm so tired of depending on him, I'm tired of not driving, like ugh... I'm just tired.


Another thing that gets on my nerves, is 2 faced people! Like I hate when someone is always talking about you behind your back and then wanna be your friend when they need you, like I am so over that. If you ain't with me your against me, and I'm not dealing with you! Like I'm over petty shit, I over dumb ass people! I'm over making an ass out of myself, I'm over just bullshit ass people in general! Like I'm not making and effort to talk or hang out with people no more. I'm worried about me and mines.

Let me clarify! Troy spoils me. I get any and everything I want! But sometimes I feel bad for all the stuff he does for me. Like he does, X, Y, and Z and I don't hardly do anything for him. Like I'm only doing this so I can be my own person. I love Troy and I am happy for everything that he does for me. But I just wanna be my own person that's all.


Still waiting,

~Mia~