Sleep fighting

So, I've been sleep fighting over the past week. Like I'll be dreaming and next thing I know, Troy's waking me up saying that I was punching him in my sleep. Idk where it comes from, maybe I should google sleep fighting. Like I've never done this before, and it's kinda scary cuz I never realize that I'm hitting him, cuz I'm always dreaming about something else. And then I'll punch him. Like I punched him really hard last night cause my fist was hurting. and I needed to crack my knuckles.

So Troy enjoyed his birthday, except I feel horrible about the anal sex we had. Like I was really bad because it hurted me so bad. Like I cried because it was painful. Like I feel like he watches too much porn. He watches that anal porn and I guess he expects to look and feel like that I guess, but it doesn't. My asshole ain't the size of a quarter, so he's not gonna fit in there easily. Then he just jams him penis in there like he's putting it in my vagina and thats not the way about it. It hurts like hell, but I'm willing to do whatever he may like for him to get fulfillment out of it cuz I want to give him whatever he wants and that seems to be the only thing he really wants I think that I can't give him. Like I don't want him to cheat on me with some girl that will give him anal.

Well I'm leaving class now, I just wanted to blog about whats going on and what not...

Until next time,

~Mia~