Chosing Sides

First, I read Mia's blog and it breaks my heart to know that she feels that way. The last thing I would ever want to do it come between her and her best friend, just how I wouldn't want anyone to come between me and mines. With that said, I'm done with this whole shit with Dezeray. Yea, I said it before but now I actually mean it. I'm tired about feeling bad and crying about something that I don't even know I did. Furthermore, the people that she has told what happened all say that its dumb and not worth losing a friendship over. If it was that dumb, we would be talking right? I guess not. Maybe she never really wanted to be my friend from the jump. Maybe she been not liked me just didn't want to hurt my feelings. Of course, she could have hated me for a while now and just been phoney. Whatever the case, I no longer care. If our friendship can't handle petty shit like this, I don't want to be friends again and something big happens and I know that once again, I will be alone. With that said, I'm seperating myself from my twin offical. I will no longer attend mutual events or participate in mutual activites unless the persons being there are ok with my presence even if it means Dezeray won't come. I have also decided to stop participating in the group thread. I feel as though I censor what I say when I shouldn't have to and I hate that she responces to me on there but not in real life. Plus, I can always text/call/tweet the people in it and they can contact me if they want to talk to me. Just like I told Mia, I have also told our mutural hopkins friends that I wouldn't come to events if they want her there and they said they want me there. It seems like the only people I'm cutting out of my life are the ones closes to me (Mia, Troy, Justin and Jizz) but as I said earlier, I can talk to them other ways.

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