In the meantime

It's been awhile since I last reported my life to you. So much has happened and I don't know where to begin. So I think I'll just type and see where it takes me.

Soo for starters... WE'RE MOVING!! I kno, I kno *clap, clap* We will move in on Apr 1. I'm excited, but at the same time I'm stressed. I feel like I'm busting my ass and I troy not doing anything. Like I understand I'm making more money cuz I do work 2 jobs, 7 days a week. BUT I brought everything, and that's not bothering me, what is bothering is that I'm doing all the packing and shit too, like he hasn't washed any clothes, he hasn't cleaned up the room yet. I feel like since he's off 2-3 says a week, the LEAST he can do is fucking clean up! or wash clothes SOMETHING you know just as well as me when we are moving and and you have done nothing! Like he doesn't do anything in intuitive. Like he's so fucking lazy and it's killing me. It's killing my mind like my brain is wrecking cuz I don't wanna wait until the last min to be packing in moving shit I want to be done, I want to move and I feel like he's a big as log in my way of trying to get shit done... better yet I'll call him dead weight. like it's soooo annoying ugh.....

I'm frustrated like sexually and I will admit that it maybe a phase but for the time being it's killing me! I had sex the other night and it had sooo much potential to be AMAZING... but it ended in a flop. I still haven't recovered from that. I wanna have sex and I want it to be good but I'm afraid to put myself out there. And when I mention it to troy he just says ok well don't worry about it and rolls over. like ugh... DO SOMETHING!!!

I started watching tv and got lost in my thought sooo I blog later.


miachennel