Am I Ready?

Ok Lisandra's blog insired to write one of my own. i kno its been a long time but i didnt really feel like i had anything to talk about. but its funny lisandra wrote that blog about self analyzation and its something that i have been doing alot lately too. like for me its different i completely love my chosen field cooking is a passion of mine and i love that im pursuing it but at the same time i always wonder if im actually good enough to make it. like i look at the huge number of people that graduate in the field and manage to do nothing with it. there are so many people out there i wonder wats gonna set me apart from the next person. every time i cook for someone they always go out of their way to tell me how good it is and all i can ever see are the flaws in it. and they drive me crazy because i kno that while my friends and family may think its awesome my potential head chef probably wouldnt and thats when the self-doubt sets in. An then when i add on the fact that in december im gonna be done; no more school, no more crutch. im gonna be thrown into the real world without any idea if im ready to succeed in my field. i kno ive learned alot but i still kno how much more there is for me to learn and it kinda scares me. especially since if i cant make it as a chef i have nothing to fall back on i'll be up the proverbial creek with out a paddle. but i guess at the end of the day all i can really do is hope and pray that when the time comes the clouds will clear and i'll have some form of clarity and direction and that i can pove to myself that i am ready and that i can do it


Jay Out