Dezeray

Now I love my twin sister and I always will but sometimes I wonder if she thinks that the world revolves around her. Like I want to be there for her but at times, I feel like she takes me for granted. Like tonight. I wanted to go to the movies with Mia, Troy, Jasmine and Justin and just hang out with my friends, so I told my homie Day that I couldn't party with her. Even though I knew that it was hurting her feelings because she feels that I always choose Dezeray, I wanted to be with my other friends too. So then I get a text from Dezeray telling me that she still wanted me to come to Hopkins and spend time with her so I came anyway. So I'm here and she leaves. at first, I was having fun with Amanda and Kelli but then they started playing volleyball and I was bored. I asked Dezeray what she was doing and she told me she would be right back. So I stayed and waited. and waited. and waited. So I get on facebook and through the course of the night find out she was at walmart with  Mia and Troy and Kerri while I was here waiting for her to be "right back". Now, it is 11:15 pm and I have done nothing. Instead of going out and having fun with Day, I spent my night waiting for Dezeray. And where is she now?? I don't even know. I just feel like she is running around with her JHU friends and is forgetting about me. Like I know that they are my friends too but this is their schools. Its not like I can just walk around and whatever because I don't go here. I just feel really neglected right now and since she's not here to listen, I'm blogging it.

Like I really want to cry because I am so bored and there is nothing to do at all. I also feel really bad because I wasted my night on this and its making me mad! Like WTF?! and inside I feel like ugh!! UGH!!!! UGH!!!! Like I think I just wanna go home and I don't think she will notice :'(

and like Kerri just came in here to check on me but not Dezeray...Ain't that something?? smh