***SCREAM***

I am soooo tired of being stuck in this fucking house doing the same fucking routine. I am so tired of not having GSE I feel backed up!!! I even tried pleasuring myself and I did however get instant satisfaction I still longed for the fulfilling feeling of having a penis inside of me. Like I feel so alone because i cant find not one person to talk to or hang with or ne thing. I feel like all i wanna do is scream.

So Mother's day is coming up and I don't feel any better about that coming up because it is a sucky ass holiday and I haven't had a good one thus far. At work I am the only mother working that day, another is but she already said she's gonna call out. So it'll be just me and a bunch of other ppl that aren't mothers and I kno that its not like I am gonna get ne gift out of the whole thing cuz no one has money and I kno that my daughter father is not thinking about giving me shit. And if he doesn't get me ne thing best believe he will not get a damn thing from me for fathers day but a fucking phone call.

I am so hungry. My craving are starting to set in and I seem to not be able to get anything that I want to eat and it isn't ne thing in here to eat that I want. Then when I see something I want I cant eat it cuz our microwave is broke, we don't have ne bread and out grease is starting to run on "E" so I cant fry anything!!! Again I just wanna scream.

Troy's having his issues and i cant seem to help. seems like everything I do doesn't help i'm just completely done with the whole thing :p

Idek ne thing ne more I just wanna go out have fun and forget everything but I cant because I continue to be stuck in the got damn house doing the same got damn thing!!!!!!!!!!!!