Prom Queen

So these next couple of days are going to be hell on earth for me cause of course mother nature came to visit me. Sometimes I wish that I could just get my uterus removed and therefore stop it all but I want to have a lil bundle of cells that resembles me and looks up at me and cries for my to hold it so I endure this horrible effing week in hopes that someday I will experience mother hood and then get my uterus removed.

While many may look at this as an extreme approach to a naturally event, you need to experience what I go through. Like I had my first period in the 3rd grade and it fucking sucked!! Do you know what its like to be like 8 and have a period?! No you don't!! But let me tell you. It was weird to be in gym class cramping up and bent over and the school nurse look at me like I was stupid. I didn't know what was going on and apparently she didn't either. Then in 6th grade, I was on birth control. So when I filled out my medical cards and wrote in that I was on birth control, the dirty lil teachers at roland park look at me funny and NO BITCH!! I WAS NOT A FAST LIL GIRL!! I HAVE A MEDICAL CONDITION!! Then we find out that it was stunting my growth so I had to stop taking it and guess what?? I didn't grow but I did however continue to break out horrible and have awful pains that would sent me home from school in the middle of the day and I wouldn't return for a week! I NEVER HAD PERFECT ATTENDANCE!! 

Now I'm going to start a new birth control as soon as I can because this is crazy! All because I want to experience motherhood! I want to know why God choose me?? like every time my period starts, I feel like crying for no reason and then get mad over nothing! I get mad cause a light turned red and feel bad for being mad and then feel like crying cause I feel so bad and then feel happy again cause it turned green! Ain't that some crazy shit?! So I'm putting it out there and telling you now, and I am sorry. I may yell at you for being a good friend and then expect to cry on your shoulder. I'm sorry if I hurt your feelings I really don't mean it and I do love you!

All for Now

Sanda Out

P.S. I the title is that lil wayne song and I love it now