Fuck My Life

Okay am about to vent alot because i have alot of shit that i have to just get out because i cant hold it in anymore:


Rant #1

I talked to my mother and my grandmother the other day and i was all in a good mood calling them to check on them cause i hadnt talked to them in a couple days and when i talk to them all i get is layed out for being rude and ungrateful for not calling my aunt on her birthday and for not calling her or her daughter since ive been back at school since they are putting money in my bank account every 2 weeks. Okay this is money that i neither asked for or really need while it is a help i could do with out it. but to get back to the birthday thing none of them called me on my birthday but im suppose to bend over fucking backwards to call her on her birthday because she sends me money. Like i dont think that my fam understands that not only am i taking a full load of courses, but i do workstudy where i am essentially in charge of all the other workstudy people so i have to oversee 4 other people, but i also have to pay bills and i attempt to have some kind of a life seeing as though i am only 19 y/o and should still be able to have fun. But they dont get that on top of the fact that i am a hour time difference away from them so i wakr up in the morning and go to class and then go to workstudy after and dont get finished until 5 o fucking clocking and then i go home and eat and try and relax alittle and by the time i am at a place where i feel like talking on the fone maybe its fucking 6 o clock which is midnight at home and i am not calling anyone that late becuz its fucking rude. but they dont get that, so i have be able to handle myslef in hawaii and be on top of my bills, my work, my school and my life and still have to cater the fucking whims of people back in baltimore that bitc if i dont call them yet they cant pick up the fucking fone and call me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

more to come later