My life...

My life has been weird lately... like idk its just weird. And I think this medicine I've been taking has been the result of my weirdness... so these are the side effect of the medicine:

Methyldopa


Methyldopa is capable of inducing a number of adverse side effects, which range from mild to severe. Nevertheless, they are generally mild when the dose is less than 1 gram per day.[1] Side effects may include:


Psychological
Depression and/or even suicidal ideation, as well as nightmares
Apathy and/or anhedonia, as well as dysphoria
Anxiety, especially of the social anxiety variant
Decreased alertness, awareness, and wakefulness
Impaired attention, focus, and concentration
Decreased desire, drive, and motivation
Fatigue or lethargy and/or malaise or lassitude
Sedation or drowsiness and/or somnolence or sleepiness
Agitation or restlessness
Cognitive and memory impairment
Derealization and/or depersonalization, as well as mild psychosis
Sexual dysfunction including impaired libido, desire, and drive


Physiological
Dizziness, lightheadedness, or vertigo
Miosis or pupil constriction
Xerostomia or dry mouth
Gastrointestinal disturbances such as diarrhea and/or constipation
Headache or migraine


I have just about all of those side effect above to some degree, even the sex one a little, like I wanna do it but then again i dont. I feel drowsy all the time, i have no motavation, I have memory issues I'll be in the middle of a sentence with somebody and I'll forget what i was saying!! But i did that before but now it seems worse!!! like I feel happy to know whats going on but still this is just weird... the one about me feel axienty about social situation is sooo true like I do not like leaving the house I do not wanna be around people I just feel nervous about the whole damn thing.

I'm gonna stop now cuz I cant focus on this lol so bye :)