Tired of being nice

I am so tired of being nice!!! I'm so tired feeling alone. I am just tired! My mother thinks that I am this way cuz i was this way when i was pregnant with melanie. but i dont remember feeling overwhelmed with melanie I remember me just wanting to find a job so I wouldnt have to ask ne one for ne thing and I feel that way now too like i dont kno what to do ne more. My daughter keeps getting sick and I just feel so lost I feel alone like my mind is scattered right now I cant even focus long enough to write this blog ugh i think im gonna post this and just try again later :(