So I just found this baby picture where I am making this mean ass face and I love it! It just proves that I've always kept it real and now I am sick. Thank you baby jesus. Anyway, Mia, don't let her get to you. Just breathe in, count to 4 and release :D. It always works for me and I feel better afterwards 98% of the time.
Anyway, I can't wait til Thursday at 9pm because I will take my last treatment pill and I will be done with the damned flu!! I feel like as a human race, we're always trying to find new ways to kill each other and its always the innocent bystanders (ie ME!) who end up out of work for a week wearing a face mask and unable to eat. Which reminds me, I have lost 5 pounds since starting treatment. Since friday I have eaten 8 chicken nuggets, 2 slices of toast and an overcooked hot dog. Ugh. However, this had illness has shown me that people really are genuine and that they really love me and are not just saying it cause it wounds nice :D (not that I doubted anyone before). I don't really have anything else to write so tata for now!
*~Sandra Out~*
As A Baby, I Was Mean
Tired of being nice
I am so tired of being nice!!! I'm so tired feeling alone. I am just tired! My mother thinks that I am this way cuz i was this way when i was pregnant with melanie. but i dont remember feeling overwhelmed with melanie I remember me just wanting to find a job so I wouldnt have to ask ne one for ne thing and I feel that way now too like i dont kno what to do ne more. My daughter keeps getting sick and I just feel so lost I feel alone like my mind is scattered right now I cant even focus long enough to write this blog ugh i think im gonna post this and just try again later :(
The Other Night whY?????
So i just put T.O.N.Y on and i decided to blog about somethings cuz it's been a while for me since I got my new phone and have no need to get on the computer.
First off, Lisandra I completely feel you on your blog. (even tho its kinda old) but I was hurt by it too cuz I do feel like she chooses them over us but i also feel like she chooses you over us too. U c her all the time and I only see her when it seems like she needs something but I stop pressing the issue cuz one, I'm the only one getting upset by it. and two dezeray always has an answer for whatever you say instead of her saying sry she has a reason for a reason y she did what she did so I stopped caring cuz its clear she doesn't
So I am so ready to to pop almost like I feel more and more uncomfortable as each day pass. I try not to complain but ugh!!!!! i get tired of feeling full all the time. and it doesn't help with Melanie acting like god knows what all babyish and getting on my nerves and whining like idk what her problem is but she's slowly going back to herself so hopefully this was just a phase.
another thing that s been happening is that I've been very irritated recently and i try to shake it off but every time I'm trying to somebody is always asking me y i look the way i look and y this and y that and all i wanna b is alone and not asked a bunch of questions
well now I'm becoming distracted so I'm gonna stop