Mentally Confused

I'm just at a lost for words right now. Well obviously not at a lost for words but I'm really confused and I don't know what the right decision is anymore. I just know I can't continue to hold it in and be "strong". I love Iggy. I honestly do but I feel like at the end of the day, he wants his cake and he wants to eat it too. I feel like he's lying to me because he wants to keep me in this limbo state. I'm so tired of this Kiana chick but at the end of the day, shit might not even be her fault. I don't know what he's telling her or what goes on when I'm not around. I just don't know and it sucks. I'm not his mom and I'm not gonna continue finding his iPhone and reading text messages.This shit is way beyond anything I've EVER done in a relationship. He fucked up, not me but I still feel like I'm suffering. Ugh. IDK!!! I just had to get it out there. #AnnoyedAsHell ~Sandra Out