So for the past 3 days I have been posting a status addressed to post secret and confessing something about myself. So to go along with those statuses I will write the story that goes with it here on the blog. I will do this until the end of the year because I do not wanna go unto e new year or becoming 21 holding on to past issues and secrets, consider this a re-birth.
Day 1
Dear PostSecret,
I feel like I'm not as smart as my friends.
Love,
Mia
Its not much to say about this besides what it states. I don't feel as smart as my friends. (By friends I mean my fellow bloggers of this blog and other friends) Like they all got scholarships and all have there school thing going and I feel I guess stupid because I'm not in school and idk I just feel like an outsider. They all are smart and talented and doing well in school like idk its hard to explain and I'll go into details later when I feel like it.
Day 2
Dear PostSecret,
I just want her to be as proud of me as she is of him.
Love,
Mia
I've probably talked about this in previous blogs about how I feel like my mom isn't as proud of me as she is my brother. I feel like the black sheep at times because she treats us differently. She's always down my back about something, but she was never on him as much as she is on me. Like he's so successful and has so much to show for everything and me I'm still at home with 2 kids. I've done successful things, I work I'm always trying to better myself, but I just feel like i can't compare to him.
Day 3
Dear PostSecret,
I like to stare at him when he's not looking at me. :)
Love,
Mia
I think that Troy has the most beautiful eyes and facial feature, it's almost baby like when I look at him, like I just love to stare at him while not looking and see the handsome man I'm about to marry.
that's all I've done so far I will blog everyday or every couple of days and reveal the secrets and the stories behind them.
timeforhealing
<3miachennelle<3
Coming clean
Bullshit.
So I'm blogging today because I am tired of bullshit! Melanie's father is upset because she doesn't like going over his house. He starts talking about how he does so much for her and that everything he does its for her, but she says she doesn't like it at his house and he just gives up. I told him that you can't just give up and say that you don't want her to come over anymore because she hurt your feeling. NIGGA I;m gonna need for you to get your feelings together. She is a child, YOUR child. And you cannot just give up because she hurt her feelings. And it makes me think that people like him are the people who hurt there kids because things aren't going right. Also it's not fair. You see her twice a month, yea anything I ask you for I get, but steal what gets me is that when she's sick, I nurse her, when she cry, I'm there wither I want to or not, I have to be there cause she is my child and I don't have any other choice. You cannot tell me that you have a choice because its other dead beat fathers out there. You can't justify your actions by saying that other people do it. Other people aren't her father you are. What pisses me off most is that this is the second time he said this.
I don't have an exit. I have my kids both of them all the time. I don't have an exit. I don't get to come home and relax talk to people and do whatever I want,I have to come home and be mommy. I'm always mommy while he's daddy for 2 weekends out the month and he works 2 days out of the three and for him to say that he don't wanna deal with it anymore pisses me off. You can't just give away your child because they hurt your feeling tough shit!!! I bust my ass working to jobs to make sure that my kids don't want for anything and I can't just give them away cause I'm tired!! THAT'S BULLSHIT!
sotiredofit
<3 miachennelle <3
Post Secret
So I read the book earlier at work and it has motivated me into submitting my own, post secret.
Not that I have major secrets that could like ruin my or anyone else's life, like it's just somethings that people hold onto. Somethings people wanna take to the gave because they don't wanna feel judged.
Some people are walking truth boxes because they really don't have a sense of self.
I'm not sure what I fall under, but I am gonna decorate the cover. and it's gonna be my little secret.
sssshhhhh
<3 miachennelle <3
When a woman is in love
When a woman is in love, she'll do anything to please her man. She'll do things that she said she'd never do. She'll wake up and the morning and start thinking about him. When she rested her head, it was him who was on her mind.
This is what I do everyday. I'm in love. I do things that I swore, I'd never do. I think about him constantly waiting for his next touch, and when he does touch me, I realize that it was worth the wait. I love laying with him and looking into his eyes. Dreaming of what forever will feel like. Laying into his arms smelling his love. I love this man, and I love everything about this man.
If only the time we spent together would tick on forever. If only the love we make, would last an eternity. If only I could yours forever and a day...
But I know that soon enough time will allow this. Together we will be in this life and another. Nothing can stop true love, and I met you for a reason. I can't wait until my soul has it's mate and with you I can be with forever.
When a woman is in love all she thinks about it you.
<3 miachennelle <3
Got the peephole to my soul
Sooo... A lot has happened and nobody is blogging so I will try to cover as much as I can within this blog and as much as I feel like typing.
So, I finished Medix and got a job. I hate it, but it's a job none the less. My life isn't bad either. Me and Troy are getting married next year and I am very excited :) he's my baby and I wouldn't imagine it no other way. Caleb is big walking saying a few things and getting teeth. He's 14 months. Melanie is doing great in school, she's writing and learning to read too.
Besides that I can't think of too much else to say lol but I will defiantly try to blog more often :)
happilyinlove
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