Idk if that's even a word, but I don't understand why Troy can't be open minded. Ok, for instance, last night... I wanted to have sex, but Troy said he didn't. He was mad because I scratched him or something Idk and he had a piss ass attitude. So He was on the computer looking up Condos, and apartments when I asked him to put the computer away so we could you know do some like foreplay and have sex. He said no, he didn't want to and that I wasn't gonna do nothing but the same old thing. I asked again, come on put the computer away. He still said no. So when I turn over and went to sleep he wants to have sex. I said no I don't want to anymore because he made me mad. How can you be so closed minded and say I was gonna do the same thing when your not a fortune teller!! You don't know anything until it happens, so what the fuck are you saying? Then he got mad at me and tried to flip the script. I told him I didn't think that was fair and I went to sleep. SO he had an attitude and got up and played the game. I slept real good last night I might add, but he still pissed me off because he's so closed minded.
But the thing that also makes me mad is that he claims I don't do anything different besides kiss on his neck and what not, but he don't do nuffin. Like he claims I don't tell him what turns me on, but I feel like he should know. We been together almost 3 years and you don't know what turns me on? You know I like being kissed on the neck but do you do it? No. You know I like my back kissed but do you do it? No!!!! Like you always want me to suck your dick but do you eat me? NO!! Like I'm so confused because you're always talking about I don't do this I don't do that, but you don't do shit!! Like I feel like the only time we have good sex is when I'm just already horny cuz you don't make me horny. And I'm tired of lying to myself. It's a two-way street and it makes me mad when you want me to suck your dick and let you cum in my mouth but wtf am I gonna get out of it? Like I don't suck your dick because I don't get nuffin out of it. It don't turn me on cuz I know as soon as I'm done sucking your dick your gonna wanna have sex and I not turned on. You know I like when you run your fingers through my hair when I suck you dick like thats the least you could do but do you do that? NO you just laying there jerking and moving enjoying yourself.
Sex is a mutual thing. I please you, you please me. It's killing me that we have to take turns pleasing each other. Why can't we do both. I want to be more simulated when we have sex. I want actually foreplay. Is that too much to ask?
~Sexuallyfrustrated~
miachennell
Open-mindedness
Unpretty
People tell me all the time that I'm pretty. But I don't feel like I am. I've been with Troy almost 3 years, and he doesn't even think I'm pretty. I don't even think he loves me. How can he say he love me, when he'd change everything about me? The way I dress, the way I talk, the way I act... If you'd change all those things, than what do you like about me. It's hurtful cuz I never talk or say I'd change anything about him. There are things I don't like, but I don't bring it up because that's only hurting people self esteem. I already have low self-esteem and it hurts my feelings that he'd talk down on me. But maybe I should do what he do and talk down on him and lets see how he'd like that. Tell him what I don't like I bet he'll probably try to leave. I swear life is so one-sided!
I'm going to go to bed and elaborate on this more 2mar.
Until next time,
~Miachennel~