OK so its official, I'm pregnant and the insults have started coming in. Troy's aunt (even tho she tried to be nice) told me I was stupid and this was just the wrong time. She told me I was dumb, stupid, slow, retarded all of the above for letting troy convince me to stop taking my pills that I know better than that. I try to be strong because I know everything happens for a reason, and God won't put anything on you that you can't bear, and I continue to pray to God and thank him for everything that he's done for me and continue to for me and everyone I come in contact with daily.
So, on a good note I have an ultrasound appointment next Thursday, I'm excited to see my little collection of cells. Oh yea and a heartbeat lol.
I try to be strong like and keep a hard shell, but sometimes worlds can hurt more than physical abuse. Like yea I know ppl will be ppl, but it still doesn't mean that that shit doesn't still hurt.
But I'll be OK, I know I will God won't put anything on me that he knows I can't bear.
Here we go again
guess what???
So much has happened since I last blogged but all of that will seem meaningless as the newest thing has happened to me. So I found out I was pregnant recently, and we decided to keep it and I'm so happy!!!! Like at first I was kinda cold to the idea of having another baby but then I realized that it wont be so bad having another kid, and Troy's parents are behind us 100% so that made it way better!!!! Like of course I wanted to have a baby but honest to god I didn't think it would happen this fast like it took like 2 months since I stopped taking my pills and now here I am pregnant.
So as of now I am 5 weeks pregnant, I'm kinda scared I might like mysteriously come on my period wed but I took like 5 test n they all said yea so u never kno.
I'm just scared that my side of the family will flip but i realize i don't have to tell ne one cuz I'm grown and I don't have to share that with them.
week 5 of 40
I'm just happier than u can believe and troys happy so it looks like things r getting good.
I do wanna move towards saving for this baby and getting my own place cuz I can tell things r gonna get kinda holsile around here like I told my mom but I'm not telling nebody else like they don't matter so I don't have to tell.
But Im due August 12 and that seems forever from now, but that's cuz I'm doing everything so early like with Melanie I didn't even go to the doctors until like 2 months into the pregnancy so that was like 2 months gone so it was more like i was pregnant for 7 months instead of 9 then I had her early so everything went pretty quick.
I hope I'm having a girl like I wanna have the first girl of their family like I cant wait. I'm mad I gotta wait until like march to get an ultrasound ugh... this is gonna take forever!!!!!!!!
But I need forever cuz I need a lot of time to get ready!!!!!!!
week 5 of 40